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Voracious appetite

I have often wondered how certain people manage to achieve so much. I have observed the rise of personalities who seem to be able to create and produce so many things in such short periods of time and I have gasped in admiration wondering ‘how did they do all that?

As our weekend event- Gay Utopia – arrived and happened and an answer to that question started to emerge.

Along with Ade, I found myself as co-founder literally shaking with energy and adrenaline. Several people commented on how my hands were trembling throughout the day.

Was it nerves? No!

It was energy, excitement and alert attention.

I was waking at 4.30 am and I was finding it hard to sleep at the end of the day. My energy was on the rampage and rarely flagged.

Now this is quite some turn of events as I am no stranger to afternoon naps and early nights. Some days I cling onto the next cup of coffee hoping it will get me through. But here I was, spinning many plates, greeting people, directing and communicating while not feel an ounce of fatigue. How was that possible?

Firstly I think it was the consequences of ideas meeting reality. This was really happening. All our thoughts and visions were actually happening before our eyes. The actualisation of making thoughts into realities is one hell of a high. It reminds us of our power to create and that is such a rush!

Not only is it energising but it also creates more opportunities, ideas and momentum. Throughout the day I could see more and felt capable of more. I had a voracious appetite. At one point someone asked me- “What are you on?”

Suddenly it made sense that those people I had observed and admired as being so vital and productive were riding on the same vibrant energy that I was experiencing. It is the energy that is available to all of us when we step fully into our power.

2 thoughts on “Voracious appetite”

  1. It is wonderful to read your post about the burst of energy you experienced over the Gay Utopia weekend. I am sure many others had a similar experience too.

    I came on both days and attending the event was about all I could manage that weekend, apart from walking my dog. I slept on Saturday afternoon to be sure I could stay alert during the evening’s performance. I felt the energy and excitement but I could not keep up with my gay brothers on this great adventure. I know there are others in my situation; sadly my experience is that the energy you speak of is not available to all of us. Would that it was!

    After living with HIV and all that it brings and takes away for almost thirty years I am simply not able to keep up with you all. The concentrated Quest weekends are too demanding. I could manage it split over two weekends perhaps….

    It would be a great shame if those gay men like myslef, some of whom were trailblazers for gay rights whilst you were perhaps still at school (I am 54), are left out of the Gay Utopia being propositioned.

    Reasonable adjustments would need to be made for us even after we have fully stepped into our power.

    I think what you are doing is vital.

    1. Hi Gavin.
      Thank you for your encouraging words and for sharing where you are with ‘energy’.
      Thank you too for your commitment to be fully engaged in the Gay Utopia Weekend!
      Like you, I too am HIV+ and I have experienced regular bouts of fatigue which made my surge of energy this weekend so welcome. I was amazed at my stamina! It made me think that the best way for me to maintain a reasonable level of energy is to immerse myself in my passions – it seems to bring me alive.

      Regarding our workshops- we are introducing a series of one day workshops next year that are open to all and perhaps this will be more appropriate for you right now. You can check them out on this website in the WorkOut section.
      Also the First Tuesday socials, life coaching and storytelling project are another way of participating in The Quest that do not require a full weekends commitment in one go.

      Being inclusive is central to our approach and we hope that the range of work we offer will enable everyone to find something that suits them.

      Best, Darren.

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